Footprints of My Life- The Final 10

An observation from my journey….

It was little more than a year ago I decided to start out on a journey that was sparked by a recommendation of a friend to seek out those who have molded and shaped my life over the years. Along the way I have learned a bit about myself and those whose paths I have crossed. At times I have been reminded me that I could have been better friend to some and other times I have been reminded that I let some into my life that did not allow me to show “my better angel”.

Reminiscing about all the good things that have happened in your life is the easy part…reminiscing about when you were wrong or where you wronged is tougher on the soul. Sometimes those mistakes are made out of an honest lack of knowledge and sometimes we just don’t think before we do. It’s the latter that has the deepest cut and most usually are the hardest to forgive no matter whether they are recent or are mistakes from a long time ago. Sometimes saying you are sorry to someone or having someone say they are sorry isn’t really the aloe of life…and you realize that forgiveness is something that may never happen.

I think that is the lesson that was hardest for me to learn….forgiveness is something that may never come or that you may find hardest to give! In my youth I let anger fester and grow when I felt wronged….with family, with friends and mostly with those I saw as enemies. But yet I always expected that forgiveness when I had done something wrong no matter whom it was. As I have gotten older/wiser(?) I have found that having a hard heart toward others that may have wronged me only ages me…not those who may have committed the wrong. And continuing to carry it in my heart does me no good. But that does not exempt me from seeking forgiveness when I have made my mistakes…so here goes:

To all my family, friends and others who have crossed my path of life…there were times that I said something wrong/hurtful/spiteful…times that I did something in my heart that I knew was wrong…or just times I forgot you were there and may have needed me. I want to ask for your forgiveness and let you know I will try harder to be better whether or not we ever meet in person again. I will seek to show my “better angel” when I am with others…and remind myself to forgive others in the same manner I wish to be forgiven.